urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:akasha980 akasha980 akasha980 2009-04-29T01:13:57Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:akasha980:628 2009-04-29T01:12:21Z 2009-04-29T01:13:57Z My Chem/Techno This story starts long ago, seventeen years ago when I was born into a Mormon family. Now the thing about Mormonism and what happened with it is why I'm here. Now, in Mormonism, what they do is basically brainwashing. Every Sunday all the kids are to recite something like: "I know the church is true. Joseph Smith is a prophet..." and such things. Anything else was shunned as false worship. I never questioned the church, and if my family had not left the church, I'd still be a good little Mormon who never questioned anything. But they did. So I started questioning things like: "Judaism and Christianity have only been around for about 5.5 thousand years what for all the unfortunate people born before that? " Then I went deeper. "What about all the people who had absolutely NO CHANCE of even hearing about the Judaic -Christian god? Since no man can enter heaven without having been one of those during their respective times, and they had no chance, did he make people just to damn to hell because no matter WHAT they do they're at a geological disadvantage to the religion? What kind of FUCKED UP God makes people who'll go to hell despite how they live their lives?" I was DONE with Christianity after this. Of course the sad matter was I was 14-15ish and now I was: without religion, clueless on what to do, and (I STILL) haven't told my parents and am petrified to do so. So I was lost for a bit more than a year when I picked up a litlle fiction book called "Sweep". Its quite the book and I recommend people who like to read to read it, but that's not what was life changing about it. It was the first time I read about any kind of paganism (It was Wicca). My heart, I kid you not, felt like it was smiling at the Idea of an earth based religion. I loved, still love, and will ALWAYS love the earth, and it was so Ingenious and so simple at the same time. Started studying paganism and mythology and felt drawn to the Norse, and I do believe the have the best myths and gods.They're so... COLORFUL, if you know what I mean, I mean Odin has power over stuff from two COMPLETELY different walks of life, EX:  Poetry and War. Knowledge and Death. Now in Greek its something like Love and relationships. That's all just stuff from one "domain" thingy. The Nordic gods seem more Alive to me than the other gods of other pantheons.